There’s not much I can do,
When all I think about is you.
My soul found home with yours,
And fighting this feeling is causing wars.
I think about you almost everyday,
So much so I wonder if I’ll be OK.
Some days are better than others,
But some days that butterfly hovers.
I wonder why we could never be,
When all I want is you with me.
The universe teases me and plays with my heart,
I tried to forget you and tried to spend time apart.
When I think I’m finally moving on,
I’m reminded of you when I hear a certain song.
I cannot bare this ignoring game,
I long to love you and heal this pain.
I can’t explain how I feel when I see you,
But I try not to look,
Because when I do, It’ll always be you,
Like the perfect love story from my favorite book.
I’ll never have you, and that is clear.
You don’t want me, and that I fear.
I cannot love anyone, because of you,
My heart just doesn’t know what else to do.
As I continue to pretend that you don’t exist,
I can only imagine what it would be like if we just kissed.
I’m fond of you, but you’ll never know,
As I burn this temple down, my love for you continues to grow.
I battle my heart and my mind,
I’m looking for answers, but they are hard to find.
I wonder if you’re happy and made the best choice,
Because if you’re not, just follow my voice.
When I sing, I sing for you,
It’s the only thing that I know how to do.
For now I can only wonder as I tame my mind,
I have so many things to say to you, but it’s the words I find hard to find.
My hope is to move on from what was never mine,
Perhaps there’s a future for us that has aged like fine wine.
But for now no matter what it is that I do,
Just know that- it’ll always be you…
©️ 2022 Riva Gijanto
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